yes , i know i have changed .
I know you are reading my blog now. All i want to tell you is that , though i have changed , in my heart , i still really love all of you people . Im sincerely sorry for all the hurt i had caused to you , making you shed countless of tears for me . Though, i may not expressed it, i want you to know i am equally upset as well when i see you all so depressed over me . im truly sorry . However, i want you to know this , regardless of how late i reach home every single day, not having eaten dinner with all of you for ages , i want all of you to know that i still care and love for you in my heart . i really do .
i am really tired of all the conflicts i have with you each day . each time i step home , i know what it will be like, thus , im afraid to step home . i dont want to quarrel with you , you understand ? i hate to see you so upset . i really dun like it .
I also know that you know all the bad things i have done . i do not want to say out here too . However, i just want to let you know, i am not as bad as what all of you think of me . i can assure you that i will not smoke and take drugs or what so ever. dont worry ok ? Yes, deep in my heart, i am really thankful for all the concern you have for me . but some times i feel its just too overboard that it becomes annoying. but of course , i still appreciate it. [: Since you violently object me to go for piercing , i give you my word, i wont .
Lastly, i want to let you know, though i always come back very late at night , & all the bad things i had done in the past , i promise you , i WILL get a degree and i WONT come home one day in trouble . I promise . I also will not get in trouble anymore , and will not let you clean up all the trouble i caused outside . im sorry for all the things i have done ! i dont need your trust in anything , but just trust me in this . ok ? & do not worry for me always because i have grown up and i promise you i will behave myself when i need to .
& happy mother's day . im sorry i am unable to celebrate mothers day with you .
but still , ps. i sincerely love all of you regardless of anything ;D