& things were'nt the same as before . there is just something missing between us . you made me not understand love anymore . you made me totally lost trust in you . im changing , but i do not want to . im confused , i feel that im a bitch . yes , i think i really am if you know what i did behind your back . i do not want it to happen , but it just did . im falling in love all over again .
but im afraid , afraid that i will be hurt once more . afraid that i make a wrong choice and regreting it for life . i do not know what to do . please give me some time to think over everything

to that special you : you said you really like me alot. but why cant i really feel it ? not that im doubting you , but i do not want to make the wrong choice. can i trust you ? im afraid of starting everything anew . going through all setbacks & quarrels once again . but , i do seem to like you .